5 posts from May 2008

sail much

no

sale much

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You know when you want someone to walk in the door really bad.
You know they probably wont but still you think about it.  And still want it to happen.
I'm feeling that way right now.

So im going to prom again.

at a diffrent school

some girls asked me.  And today they asked me if I was totally disgusted with them asking me becasue thats how i looked.  and i was like no but i wasn't expecting to have to go to prom again.  they didn't like that to much.  i don't think they think i want to go.  but kinda i do, i just usually say either something weird or slightly wrong.

o well

girls

Blatantly,  right, for all the prom sucking booze hounds, im twice in,  TWICE IN,  has that slipped.  OR has it like all that is accidental slipped so far,  SO FAR that this is what IT wanted.  Nike, souls,  on the bottom of my shoes,  how did i become so fortunate how how how.  we all are the same,  im just so trivial, did i say did i say,  how i forgot how this makes me work better,  two strikes,  but one erased tonight, one, one big strike, fatal strike, but your to perfect to ruin my fantasies, to perfect, mabey, with tucks and all,  SO I SHOUT: i want to start a collective
and
everyone
one
by
one
gasped
BUT about my sins, or lack there of, we drown in blogettic boardem (poetry).  MUST WE BE SO VAGUE!!!!!!!  LIFE IS IMPERSONAL BUT ARE WE NOT HUMAN (i wish there were to levels of capss) ARE WE NOT HUMAN.  but more importantly i will have to attend, a function, that, i have attended before this year,  but this one is new, and this time females, god bless um, asked, ASKED, me unable to, such cramps in my elbow, such cramps.

things to do today
1. chill
2. skate
3. finish one shirt
4. start next one
5. film for video
6. work
7. film for video

Things hindering my ability to do things
1. End of the Year Video for school (big production)
2. Spilled Ink Literary magazine (Co- Lead editor)
3. Ap tests

Ok so bear with me there are etsy goodies at the bottom this is going to be a long post becasue it might be my last for another while.  So to begin I have decided that I am absolutely horrible at arguing online, or through writing.  I am quite good at arguing in person.  Also I am terrible at expressing my emotions through speaking, but good at doing it online through writing or just plainly through writing.  That is something I will never understand.

I also will never understand how people can become so wound up in other peoples miserable, exploited, shameful, etc.  lives.  I think that the only way to solve the worlds problems is through self betterment, which i don't feel is selfish.  I think that self betterment includes charity.  And selfishness is only something humans invented, so I will deal with that invention only after the first human invention (an invention that is reinvented everyday), ourselves humans. 

I also will never understand why people will dislike or be unwarrantedly mean to other people for their beliefs and ideas.  We are all mostly products of our raising.  We can't all get along but it takes a strong intelligent person to accept that.  People that don't are no worse than terrorists.  But don't get me wrong I can be mean, and I can hate you, you just have to be mean and hate me first.  People online will never know where I'm from, but i will give you a hint.  I think it helps explain alot of peoples thoughts, their background.  I live in the mountains where the middle class (myself) are being driven out, people come here to start a family, ski, and smoke marijuana.  I can see the trailer parks from my house, here where I live there are billionaires being served by people steeped in poverty.  And not being specific one of my parents is Buddhist, the other a businessperson, we have monks stay at our house, we have a business run out of our house.

on an ocelote note.  I had a photo shoot with my friend in boulder at Colorado university last weekend.  I'm still waiting for the high res pictures (she has finals right now) so I can re list those items and start my re listing sale. (there is also a new not yet released item sneek peek)