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So I made a cool bracelet today.  Its like a beta test bracelet.  But additionally I have tried to make some business cards, to no avail, mabey tomorrow, and I have started to work on a web site.

so heres my story to tell that I would have told last night but I had to give this guy Stan a jump with his car, which didn't work which made me get home late which among other things made me tiered.  but it was ok.  now i  can tell my story now.

This weekend I went over to my friends house, where there were some people.  Me and these three other girls are the only single ones,  like every weekend we are the only single ones.  And they all kind of talk about me, between when we talk, between when we do things, under their breath, but you can always tell when someone is talking about you.  And I think it is because we are the only single ones.  But they all kind of come at me in a not coming at me way.  And I only really like one of them, I mean there all great, but only one of them is my type.  And from there they all kind of just have to pull each other away and do what they do.  So for instace this weekend I was talking to one of them, the one I like, and I thats what I like to do, is talk, and talk, and smile at her, etc.  I don't need to get physical right away, I just communicating makes me feel human.  But the other girls pulled her away from me, and eventually I just want to leave.  or have to leave.  So, on the slight chance of reading this just stop, ok.

god that probably sounds ridiculous

but on a less ridiculous note
last night I really realized that I have a heart.  that there is a muscle pumping in my chest without my control that is keeping me alive.  It freaked me out.  hopefully I start feeling better.